Where does time go?

It has been a week since my last post. I have had many thoughts, but could not find the time to post them. Today I have been sober 1,304 days. A close friend got drunk recently after over 6 years of sobriety. I am very sad for him, but he is back in the program and seems to be doing ok. Sadly, it sometimes takes someone close to you, doing something stupid, to make you realize that it can happen to anyone.

Each and every morning, before my eyes open, I thank God for today and my sobriety.
I also try to remember each and every day to pray for the following things, not necessarily in this order:

1. Family, friends, church.-(safety health and prosperity for each of them.)
2. Myself-(safety, health, sobriety, prosperity, and to be of service to God and someone else today.)
3. I always try to remember to pray that God's will be done, not mine.

I use the word "try" because I am much too self absorbed to consistently place others before me, but progress is being made.

I must never forget the desperation and hopelessness I felt at the end of my drinking days.
The idea that I can ever drink like a normal person has been smashed, and must remain smashed if I am to live. Therefore, daily I must spend time with God, who delivered me from a bondage that turns my stomach, even now when I think upon it. I must never forget to be thankful for second chances, and remember to give them to others. I must embrace, and live each day, like this is the last. Today is really all I have. I must remember that God is God, and I am not, and let Him guide my steps. He has proven to be a much better manager of my life than I ever was, and its working out real well for me.

I don't think I'll worry about where time goes today. I will post this note, make a chile, smoke a fine cigar, read a little, and maybe take a nap. Already I've kissed a pretty girl, eaten a hearty breakfast, made a toasty fire, and spent some quality time with God. If I'm really lucky, I'll get to kiss a baby and help someone, somehow today. This IS the day that the Lord has made, and it makes me glad.

Keep the shiney side up.