It has been a week since my last post. I have had many thoughts, but could not find the time to post them. Today I have been sober 1,304 days. A close friend got drunk recently after over 6 years of sobriety. I am very sad for him, but he is back in the program and seems to be doing ok. Sadly, it sometimes takes someone close to you, doing something stupid, to make you realize that it can happen to anyone.
Each and every morning, before my eyes open, I thank God for today and my sobriety.
I also try to remember each and every day to pray for the following things, not necessarily in this order:
1. Family, friends, church.-(safety health and prosperity for each of them.)
2. Myself-(safety, health, sobriety, prosperity, and to be of service to God and someone else today.)
3. I always try to remember to pray that God's will be done, not mine.
I use the word "try" because I am much too self absorbed to consistently place others before me, but progress is being made.
I must never forget the desperation and hopelessness I felt at the end of my drinking days.
The idea that I can ever drink like a normal person has been smashed, and must remain smashed if I am to live. Therefore, daily I must spend time with God, who delivered me from a bondage that turns my stomach, even now when I think upon it. I must never forget to be thankful for second chances, and remember to give them to others. I must embrace, and live each day, like this is the last. Today is really all I have. I must remember that God is God, and I am not, and let Him guide my steps. He has proven to be a much better manager of my life than I ever was, and its working out real well for me.
I don't think I'll worry about where time goes today. I will post this note, make a chile, smoke a fine cigar, read a little, and maybe take a nap. Already I've kissed a pretty girl, eaten a hearty breakfast, made a toasty fire, and spent some quality time with God. If I'm really lucky, I'll get to kiss a baby and help someone, somehow today. This IS the day that the Lord has made, and it makes me glad.
Keep the shiney side up.
Friday, January 29, 2010
Friday, January 22, 2010
Day one
Today is a good day. I woke up sober. That's 1,297 in a row, but who's counting. Today, I "hard-mounted" my saddlebags after reinforcing them with some creative engineering and random things around the house. They look really good. Thanks go to my neighbor and riding buddy Ben H. for helping.
Just as I was about to take a celebratory ride, Kristi showed up with my favorite (only) grandson, Benjamin. The boy is truly a delight and is much better behaved than his mother was as I recollect.
After a very brief amount of time of spoiling young Ben, I embarked on a short adventure, all by myself. It was a beautiful day for a ride thru the wind farms of Taylor and Nolan counties, topped off by a late BBQ lunch at Buck's in Sweetwater. Then 150 miles later, I find myself at home and writing a blog of all things. I don't know why, but the blog begins.
I have never written my thoughts and ideas down before, probably from some deep seated insecurity about people judging me or thinking I'm stupid. I used to care a lot about what other people thought of me, until it dawned on me, other people probably do not think of me any more often than I think of them. Since I am human and selfish by nature, my thoughts are usually about me, my world, and what I like or don't as the case may be.
This blog is probably going to be a rambling mess but I hope to focus on these particular ideas and thoughts:
My relationship with God thru Jesus Christ (because I am a recovered alcoholic God, may be referred to as Higher Power, Power greater than myself, and other 12 step friendly labels. .
My beautiful wife and soulmate for these past 33 years, Kim or Maw or KatieFaye.
My daughters Kristi and Whitney and the offspring of aforementioned daughters. So far we have Benjamin, (mentioned above) but Whitney as joined the breeding club and is due to add another grandchild in July 2010.
The husbands or, babydaddies,( Jon and Jeremy) may merit mention from time to time.
My 2007 Honda VTX 1300R and the adventures it takes me on.
Enough for the first day.
Just as I was about to take a celebratory ride, Kristi showed up with my favorite (only) grandson, Benjamin. The boy is truly a delight and is much better behaved than his mother was as I recollect.
After a very brief amount of time of spoiling young Ben, I embarked on a short adventure, all by myself. It was a beautiful day for a ride thru the wind farms of Taylor and Nolan counties, topped off by a late BBQ lunch at Buck's in Sweetwater. Then 150 miles later, I find myself at home and writing a blog of all things. I don't know why, but the blog begins.
I have never written my thoughts and ideas down before, probably from some deep seated insecurity about people judging me or thinking I'm stupid. I used to care a lot about what other people thought of me, until it dawned on me, other people probably do not think of me any more often than I think of them. Since I am human and selfish by nature, my thoughts are usually about me, my world, and what I like or don't as the case may be.
This blog is probably going to be a rambling mess but I hope to focus on these particular ideas and thoughts:
My relationship with God thru Jesus Christ (because I am a recovered alcoholic God, may be referred to as Higher Power, Power greater than myself, and other 12 step friendly labels. .
My beautiful wife and soulmate for these past 33 years, Kim or Maw or KatieFaye.
My daughters Kristi and Whitney and the offspring of aforementioned daughters. So far we have Benjamin, (mentioned above) but Whitney as joined the breeding club and is due to add another grandchild in July 2010.
The husbands or, babydaddies,( Jon and Jeremy) may merit mention from time to time.
My 2007 Honda VTX 1300R and the adventures it takes me on.
Enough for the first day.
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